10/18/14

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November is almost here and with it NaNoWriMo!  I’m very excited since it seems to be the easiest way for me to get any writing done.  For some reason Camp NaNo just doesn’t motivate me as much and I never finish what I start, but I have yet to fail a November NaNo.

I’m the type of writer who likes to plan out all the little events in a story and organize them by chapter, making a thorough outline for myself.  If I don’t do this it’s a miracle if a story ever gets completed.  I think I’ve only finished three stories without planning them while I have about thirty or so unfinished stories lying around because I have no idea what’s going to happen in them.  Planning a story from start to finish really helps me move along and keep the word count up since I always know what’s going to happen.

Now, the only problem I have is choosing what I’m going to write.  I have a bunch of ideas written down on various scraps of paper littering my desk.  Ideas on bits of receipt tape from work, written quickly between stocking freight and late-night shoppers needing me to check them out.  Ideas on colorful post-it notes, stuck all about my desk and whiteboard.  Ideas saved to documents that make my desktop look like an unorganized disaster and not even I can begin to straighten that up.  So, with all these ideas lying around it’s hard to settle on one.  One day I’ll start planning out a story, open my notebook and set pen to paper and after five chapters have been laid out I’ll become bored and think that a different story would be better suited for November.  After all, I have my whole life to work on all these other stories, but only one will be written this November.

I don’t know.  Hopefully I get this sorted before the start of November.

8/22/14

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It has been awhile since I’ve posted anything here.  Which is a shame because I had hoped to update often — working overnights has made my sleeping schedule so messed up that I end up sleeping all day instead of doing anything productive.  However, I’m going to try and fix that. 

Recently I’ve decided to rewrite and edit some of the stories I’ve written over the last four years or so with plans to self publish a select few of them.  Some of the rewrites are in the hope of actually finishing the story though.  I’m starting with a horror novella entitled Brilliant Red.  So far I’ve added quite a bit to the original while rewriting.  Of course if I’m going to end up self-publishing it as an ebook that means I may end up taking it down from wattpad.  Still not sure about everything though…

I did publish a paperback of Maki: SOLAR on createspace, but that was only because I wanted a physical copy for myself. ^^;;  I do want to write the prequel to SOLAR and try self-publishing that along with resubmitting SOLAR under my real name instead of the fake name I use for some websites.  Not sure yet.  SOLAR was a NaNo novel so most of the time I sometimes feel like it isn’t ever really going to be as good as I want it to be.  No matter how much I rewrite it or edit it.

As far as language learning goes, I’ve decided on Japanese and have been doing pretty well in studying it exclusively.  I’m still having trouble with remembering Kana, oddly enough I remember kanji better…  but with my sister at basic training I’ve been able to study more since she’s not here to distract me with the temptation of video games.   

Small (pointless) Update About How Lazy I Am…

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So, I’m pretty much failing at this studying Korean thing.  On my days off work I end up playing Minecraft or GTAV Online for hours on end and when I do work I feel way to tired to do anything but lay around the house (which seriously needs to be cleaned, but I’m too lazy for that too).  It doesn’t help that now, besides wanting to learn Chinese, I’ve also developed an interest in Japanese.  I’ve decided to stick with my first love, Korean, and try not to be distracted by other languages until I make some progress.  Maybe next year I can start learning Chinese or Japanese.  I’m going to try and study for 30-60 minutes each day.  If I don’t stick to it, then oh well.  I obviously have the time and I only have myself to blame for not learning anything.

Moving on~
Camp NaNo has started, but I don’t think I’ll be participating.  It’s not too late to join in, but I really need to finish up on some other things and having a word count goal doesn’t really motivate me, so there’s not really a reason to join.  So instead of NaNo I’m going to finish editing the story I’m going to use my Createspace code on (from last NaNoWriMo).  I have the proof I just need to finish looking it over.  And then there are the, like, seven stories on Wattpad that I need to finish, ugh, why did I ever even abandon them?

Wow, okay, now that I’m done whining about everything – it’s time to do some studying!  Hopefully by my next post I will have finally decided not to be so damn lazy in everything I do.

Laziness & Language Battles

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I am one of those really lazy people who when they have a day off work just lays around the house and watches Netflix or plays a video game all day.  I always plan to write a little or study some, but thenIi procrastinate until I just end up putting it off for another day.  I really need to work on changing that…

Writing

I haven’t worked on finishing anything but I have been editing one of my past NaNo’s for my free copies from Createspace.  I don’t know how many times I’ve edited this thing, but I still haven’t gotten completely sick of rereading it.  I know by the time I think I’ve finished I’ll have missed something, but since it’s only for my eyes I don’t really care that much.  I still want to finish one of my old stories by the end of the month, but I don’t think I will.  I got a message on tumblr from someone asking me if I was going to continue one of my stories that I haven’t updated since May 2012 and that has given me some motivation to work on it.  So who knows, maybe I will actually finish something…but probably not.  Yay for optimism! //sarcasm

Sadly, my brain is still filled up with story ideas while my flashdrive is clogged up with documents of stories long abandoned.

Korean

I’ve been working through Integrated Korean quite slowly, taking my time and reviewing words that don’t stick.  I haven’t gotten around to listening to Talk To Me In Korean lessons, but I mainly just need to review the first level anyways.  I’ll do that today (I say that now, but I’ll probably put it off because I have a lot of other things to do… yeah…totally…).

My lack of studying Korean isn’t necessarily because I’m lazy.  I’ve actually been really interested in Mandarin lately and so my attention keeps wavering and I find myself listening to ChinesePod101 lessons.  I don’t even know why I like Mandarin so much.  I used to cringe when watching Taiwanese dramas, I didn’t like the way Chinese sounded, but now I’m used to it and really starting to like the way it sounds.  I get really excited about learning a new word in Chinese.  But all my interest lies in Korean entertainment and culture.  So I’m having a mental battle trying to decide on which language to learn.  I could try for both, but I don’t think my brain can handle that right now… 나 어떡해?

New Year

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Well, a new year has begun and I feel like I’ve accomplished nothing in 2013.  That’s not a big deal though since I was never trying to accomplish anything.  But this year I hope will be a bit different.  I know making a resolution is pointless since not many ever follow through or get past the first month.  But I will be setting, hopefully, realistic goals for this year. 

I am going to seriously start learning Korean.  No more putting it off in favor of sitting around doing absolutely nothing.  I’ve collected a ton of materials over the last two years.  I always said I was going to study, but then I’d watch a drama or play a game instead.  I’ve decided to keep a log of sorts on this blog detailing my progress… in minor detail since I’m lazy.  I can read Korean just fine and I know the very basics (greetings, numbers, a few grammar points and a couple phrases).

I’ve downloaded all the Talk to me in Korean lessons available, I have their level 1 book and I also have Integrated Korean: Beginning 1&2.  I’ve downloaded FSI Korean and I have Pimsleur but I don’t think I’ll actually use either of those. 

Starting today, 01/07/2014, I will begin to truly study.  I’m going to try and finish TTMIK Level 1 by the end of the week and complete the first couple lessons of Integrated Korean. 

But learning Korean isn’t my only goal for this year.  I also plan on finishing a whole bunch of stories I have sitting around on my flashdrive.  I’ve abandoned writing for a little over a year now and I feel bad about it.  There are days when I want to write and then I get home from work and sit around doing absolutely nothing productive.  I don’t know which project I’m going to start with, but I am going to finish something by the end of February…

Anyways, here’s to a new year!

NaNo and Other Writings

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*Warning: this is a unedited, rambling post*

I did complete Nano, but it was difficult.  The story kind of dissolved into a incoherent mess by the midway point.  I hope it’s something I can fix, if not I’m not too worried about it.  Goodbye Summer was never supposed to be a serious work anyway, I have better ideas and things that fit my style more anyway.

The end of the year is approaching and I haven’t seriously worked on a piece of writing since November 2012 (when I got my job).  Every time I sit down and try to write I become easily distracted with something else or I’m too tired to focus on writing anything.  I used to love writing and did it all the time, updating my stories on Wattpad quite regularly, now I update a story every couple of months and there are stories laying around, waiting for an update when it’s been almost a year (and in some cases longer than a year) since the last time I touched the story.

I don’t know where my will went or why I don’t find all that much joy in writing anymore.  It’s frustrating because I would really like to finish a couple of stories and I had planned on finishing at least two this year, but that is most likely not going to happen now.  I need to find motivation again.  There are a lot of things I want to write, a bunch of stories I want to tell – and maybe that’s the problem.  Maybe there are too many stories I want to write.  It’s hard to focus on just one thing when there are so many ideas floating around in my head.  But how do you stop new ideas from coming?  sigh

I have tomorrow off work.  I’m going to sit down and disconnect the internet, unplug the TV and try to actually write something.  Maybe I can finish one story by the end of the year.  Maybe…

But which one~

The Worst

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So, I had fallen behind on my NaNo, but I had two consecutive days off of work coming up.  I had planned on catching up today and tomorrow, but of course the world hates me.  I woke up, ready to open my documents and get to work and then my computer just would not boot.  I normally back up my stuff once a month, but I’ve been slacking lately so I have probably lost quite a bit (music, pictures, story ideas, bookmarks… sigh).  This also means I lost my NaNo.  This isn’t a big deal since I had an earlier version of the document on my flashdrive and on my external hard drive, but I had to rewrite most of Chapter 2.  In the end I didn’t mind.  The new chapter 2 is much better than the original.  It’s more interesting at least.

I actually don’t mind losing what I had of my NaNo.  I’m more upset about my music and the art I had been working on in photoshop (I was just starting to get the hang of using a tablet).  So, now I have resorted to using this tiny notebook for all my computer needs.  I suppose it’s time to start saving up for a new desktop *cries because I love my computer even though it’s ancient*.

As for my NaNo progress… I have reached almost 12,000 words and hope to get to 15,000 before bed.  Hopefully tomorrow I can catch up completely.  Until then~ *runs off to get more coffee*.