8/22/14

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It has been awhile since I’ve posted anything here.  Which is a shame because I had hoped to update often — working overnights has made my sleeping schedule so messed up that I end up sleeping all day instead of doing anything productive.  However, I’m going to try and fix that. 

Recently I’ve decided to rewrite and edit some of the stories I’ve written over the last four years or so with plans to self publish a select few of them.  Some of the rewrites are in the hope of actually finishing the story though.  I’m starting with a horror novella entitled Brilliant Red.  So far I’ve added quite a bit to the original while rewriting.  Of course if I’m going to end up self-publishing it as an ebook that means I may end up taking it down from wattpad.  Still not sure about everything though…

I did publish a paperback of Maki: SOLAR on createspace, but that was only because I wanted a physical copy for myself. ^^;;  I do want to write the prequel to SOLAR and try self-publishing that along with resubmitting SOLAR under my real name instead of the fake name I use for some websites.  Not sure yet.  SOLAR was a NaNo novel so most of the time I sometimes feel like it isn’t ever really going to be as good as I want it to be.  No matter how much I rewrite it or edit it.

As far as language learning goes, I’ve decided on Japanese and have been doing pretty well in studying it exclusively.  I’m still having trouble with remembering Kana, oddly enough I remember kanji better…  but with my sister at basic training I’ve been able to study more since she’s not here to distract me with the temptation of video games.   

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Small (pointless) Update About How Lazy I Am…

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So, I’m pretty much failing at this studying Korean thing.  On my days off work I end up playing Minecraft or GTAV Online for hours on end and when I do work I feel way to tired to do anything but lay around the house (which seriously needs to be cleaned, but I’m too lazy for that too).  It doesn’t help that now, besides wanting to learn Chinese, I’ve also developed an interest in Japanese.  I’ve decided to stick with my first love, Korean, and try not to be distracted by other languages until I make some progress.  Maybe next year I can start learning Chinese or Japanese.  I’m going to try and study for 30-60 minutes each day.  If I don’t stick to it, then oh well.  I obviously have the time and I only have myself to blame for not learning anything.

Moving on~
Camp NaNo has started, but I don’t think I’ll be participating.  It’s not too late to join in, but I really need to finish up on some other things and having a word count goal doesn’t really motivate me, so there’s not really a reason to join.  So instead of NaNo I’m going to finish editing the story I’m going to use my Createspace code on (from last NaNoWriMo).  I have the proof I just need to finish looking it over.  And then there are the, like, seven stories on Wattpad that I need to finish, ugh, why did I ever even abandon them?

Wow, okay, now that I’m done whining about everything – it’s time to do some studying!  Hopefully by my next post I will have finally decided not to be so damn lazy in everything I do.

Laziness & Language Battles

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I am one of those really lazy people who when they have a day off work just lays around the house and watches Netflix or plays a video game all day.  I always plan to write a little or study some, but thenIi procrastinate until I just end up putting it off for another day.  I really need to work on changing that…

Writing

I haven’t worked on finishing anything but I have been editing one of my past NaNo’s for my free copies from Createspace.  I don’t know how many times I’ve edited this thing, but I still haven’t gotten completely sick of rereading it.  I know by the time I think I’ve finished I’ll have missed something, but since it’s only for my eyes I don’t really care that much.  I still want to finish one of my old stories by the end of the month, but I don’t think I will.  I got a message on tumblr from someone asking me if I was going to continue one of my stories that I haven’t updated since May 2012 and that has given me some motivation to work on it.  So who knows, maybe I will actually finish something…but probably not.  Yay for optimism! //sarcasm

Sadly, my brain is still filled up with story ideas while my flashdrive is clogged up with documents of stories long abandoned.

Korean

I’ve been working through Integrated Korean quite slowly, taking my time and reviewing words that don’t stick.  I haven’t gotten around to listening to Talk To Me In Korean lessons, but I mainly just need to review the first level anyways.  I’ll do that today (I say that now, but I’ll probably put it off because I have a lot of other things to do… yeah…totally…).

My lack of studying Korean isn’t necessarily because I’m lazy.  I’ve actually been really interested in Mandarin lately and so my attention keeps wavering and I find myself listening to ChinesePod101 lessons.  I don’t even know why I like Mandarin so much.  I used to cringe when watching Taiwanese dramas, I didn’t like the way Chinese sounded, but now I’m used to it and really starting to like the way it sounds.  I get really excited about learning a new word in Chinese.  But all my interest lies in Korean entertainment and culture.  So I’m having a mental battle trying to decide on which language to learn.  I could try for both, but I don’t think my brain can handle that right now… 나 어떡해?

New Year

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Well, a new year has begun and I feel like I’ve accomplished nothing in 2013.  That’s not a big deal though since I was never trying to accomplish anything.  But this year I hope will be a bit different.  I know making a resolution is pointless since not many ever follow through or get past the first month.  But I will be setting, hopefully, realistic goals for this year. 

I am going to seriously start learning Korean.  No more putting it off in favor of sitting around doing absolutely nothing.  I’ve collected a ton of materials over the last two years.  I always said I was going to study, but then I’d watch a drama or play a game instead.  I’ve decided to keep a log of sorts on this blog detailing my progress… in minor detail since I’m lazy.  I can read Korean just fine and I know the very basics (greetings, numbers, a few grammar points and a couple phrases).

I’ve downloaded all the Talk to me in Korean lessons available, I have their level 1 book and I also have Integrated Korean: Beginning 1&2.  I’ve downloaded FSI Korean and I have Pimsleur but I don’t think I’ll actually use either of those. 

Starting today, 01/07/2014, I will begin to truly study.  I’m going to try and finish TTMIK Level 1 by the end of the week and complete the first couple lessons of Integrated Korean. 

But learning Korean isn’t my only goal for this year.  I also plan on finishing a whole bunch of stories I have sitting around on my flashdrive.  I’ve abandoned writing for a little over a year now and I feel bad about it.  There are days when I want to write and then I get home from work and sit around doing absolutely nothing productive.  I don’t know which project I’m going to start with, but I am going to finish something by the end of February…

Anyways, here’s to a new year!

NaNo and Other Writings

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*Warning: this is a unedited, rambling post*

I did complete Nano, but it was difficult.  The story kind of dissolved into a incoherent mess by the midway point.  I hope it’s something I can fix, if not I’m not too worried about it.  Goodbye Summer was never supposed to be a serious work anyway, I have better ideas and things that fit my style more anyway.

The end of the year is approaching and I haven’t seriously worked on a piece of writing since November 2012 (when I got my job).  Every time I sit down and try to write I become easily distracted with something else or I’m too tired to focus on writing anything.  I used to love writing and did it all the time, updating my stories on Wattpad quite regularly, now I update a story every couple of months and there are stories laying around, waiting for an update when it’s been almost a year (and in some cases longer than a year) since the last time I touched the story.

I don’t know where my will went or why I don’t find all that much joy in writing anymore.  It’s frustrating because I would really like to finish a couple of stories and I had planned on finishing at least two this year, but that is most likely not going to happen now.  I need to find motivation again.  There are a lot of things I want to write, a bunch of stories I want to tell – and maybe that’s the problem.  Maybe there are too many stories I want to write.  It’s hard to focus on just one thing when there are so many ideas floating around in my head.  But how do you stop new ideas from coming?  sigh

I have tomorrow off work.  I’m going to sit down and disconnect the internet, unplug the TV and try to actually write something.  Maybe I can finish one story by the end of the year.  Maybe…

But which one~

NaNo Countdown

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It’s Oct. 30 and that means NaNo is really just around the corner.  Luckily, I have the next two days off work so I can get as much planning done as I can (because I really don’t want to be a pantser, I don’t think it suits me… besides, I don’t wear pants).  I have my notebook out and my pen is around here somewhere – I will get this done… hopefully.

I have at least come up with my idea and I am almost certain I will stick with it.  I went from wanting to write a young adult novel similar to gossip girl (but not really at all similar I guess…) to a supernatural thriller involving soul mates and cupid.  So, without further ado, here’s my word vomit summary (kind of):

If you knew who your soul mate was would you search for them and love them and protect them? Would you give up everything for them so you could just be with them? Could you? These aren’t questions Jack has ever considered, but if he had, the answer would be a definite… yes.

Jack met Kendall in high school and since the very first moment he saw her he wanted to be always be by her side. He didn’t know why he felt this way and he hated that she never did seem to feel the same for him, but still he stayed with her. Friend-zoned and content. Through high school, college and into their careers as adults he was her best friend, always there for her when she needed a shoulder to cry on and always willing to go to the zoo or get coffee – whatever she wanted.

On his twenty-fifth birthday he decides he can’t take it anymore and it is time to confess to her his true feelings. Things don’t go as planned and they fight. He leaves her place in tears and brokenhearted. And that was the last time Kendall ever saw Jack.

But he was still there… watching her.

When I read this to my sister she automatically knew what was going to happen.  I don’t know if it’s because it’s obvious or if it’s because we think in such similar ways.  Anyways~  I shouldn’t be wasting anymore time here, I have planning to do!

Is anyone else out there doing NaNo?  Are you planning or pantsing it?

NaNo ’13

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This will be my fourth year participating in NaNoWriMo.  Every year I write something completely different from the last, never the same genre, never the same characters and I just have a blast doing it.  I normally plan it all out months beforehand and have pages upon pages of ideas, plot points, sample dialogue and scenarios for my characters to end up in… but this year I have been slacking.  Between work and video games and goofing off on the internet, I haven’t really thought much about NaNo.  Now that it’s right around the corner I’ve been thinking about what I want to write and I’ve had to deal with the fact that I’m going to be pantsing it this year.  It’s so strange, I very rarely try to write something without some kind of outline.

For the past week I’ve been jumping from idea to idea, trying to pick out something that will hold my attention for a month without me getting bored of it.  I’ve considered genre, what kind of characters I want, the setting – but I have come up with nothing… sort of.  I thought I had a story picked out and then… I ended up starting it just to see how I felt about it and realized it will have to be something I work on outside of NaNo.  So I must say goodbye to that idea until around next year sometime.

So, what am I going to do this year?  I don’t know yet, but I have an inkling it’s going to be something involving soul mates, best friends and death.

If you are participating in National Novel Writing Month as well my username is horror-zombie-gem and you can find me here.